7-24-12/Ureter Good, Creatinine High, and Bravery

Things at Yale went good and so/so.   The ultrasound was good, so it appears that the Ureter Revision was a success. Thank G-D. However, my creatinine is still high – 2.3 now. They want to give me a “vacation from Yale” for two weeks, but unless the creatinine is substantially better, have a biopsy … Continue reading

6-25-12/Surgery Tomorrow

I don’t really know what to say. I spent most of today staring out into space and trying to rationalize this – or at least, make peace with it.   No such luck.   I will try to keep everyone up to date, but don’t expect anything for a few days, at least.   Thank … Continue reading

6-23-12/I Can’t Do This Again

I am really struggling. I don’t know if I can muster the strength to go through this AGAIN!   I know I don’t have a choice – and everyone keeps reminding me that – as if it helps. However, in many ways, I feel worse than going into the last surgery. Physically better overall, but … Continue reading

6-21-12/Overwhelmed – Don’t underestimate the mental drain

Today was supposed to be the surgery. I am glad it got moved so both top surgeons could be on the case, but part of me just wants this over with.   I am so overwhelmed from this hanging over me and knowing that my life – in a best case scenario – cannot return … Continue reading