7-3-12/You (likely) Don’t Know How Hard This Is

I posted the below entry on my “Post-Transplant Feelings” page. However, thought it was an appropriate entry for today.    I am very unhappy with how I feel and how others are handling me at the moment. Someone told me today that I least that “didn’t take my sense of humor.” I responded with “not … Continue reading

6-23-12/I Can’t Do This Again

I am really struggling. I don’t know if I can muster the strength to go through this AGAIN!   I know I don’t have a choice – and everyone keeps reminding me that – as if it helps. However, in many ways, I feel worse than going into the last surgery. Physically better overall, but … Continue reading

6-21-12/Overwhelmed – Don’t underestimate the mental drain

Today was supposed to be the surgery. I am glad it got moved so both top surgeons could be on the case, but part of me just wants this over with.   I am so overwhelmed from this hanging over me and knowing that my life – in a best case scenario – cannot return … Continue reading