7-24-12/Ureter Good, Creatinine High, and Bravery

Things at Yale went good and so/so.

 

The ultrasound was good, so it appears that the Ureter Revision was a success. Thank G-D.

However, my creatinine is still high – 2.3 now. They want to give me a “vacation from Yale” for two weeks, but unless the creatinine is substantially better, have a biopsy scheduled for 10AM on 8-7-12. They perform biopsies at 6 months – so mine will be a little early. It’s a little scary, but not supposed to be nearly as bad as most of what I have already been through. Not to say that makes it pleasant.

 

Of course, while at Yale, I got a call from security company telling me my house was flooding. What must have been minutes after I left for Yale, the line to the dishwasher blew out and flooded my finished basement. That’s basically my living room. The fire department came and my neighbor let them in so they could shut off the water. So, damage was mitigated. But I need this like I need kidney disease. I already paid my deductible and my insurance company already has people in the house draining water and assessing damage. I couldn’t ask for more from them, but wish I didn’t have to ask at all!

 

I also wanted to talk a little about bravery/courage in this entry.

 

People keep telling me how brave I am – and I keep telling Maria how brave she is. However, both of our consensus is they have to do what they have to do and we don’t have a choice – so why sweat it. Do other people kick and scream? It’s not like I am making a point of “taking it like a man,” it’s merely that I don’t see the point in making it harder on me or the doctors.

 

I guess bravery can be measured in how one handles themselves, not just in what they choose to handle, but in things they have to deal with. In that sense, I am brave, as are many others that I see regularly at clinic and share stories with.

 

I found a good song that relates to this topic.

 

It’s by Matisyahu and it’s called “Live Like a Warrior.”

 

Feel like the world don’t love you
They only want to push you away
Some days people don’t see you
You feel like you’re in the way
Today you feel, as if everyone hates
Pointing their fingers, looking at your mistakes
You do good, they want great
No matter what you give they still want to take
Give your love and they throw it back
You give your heart they go on attack
When there’s nothing left for you,
Only thing that you can do, say

Today, today, live like you wanna,
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire,
Fight like a Warrior,

Today, today, live like you wanna,
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire,
Live like a Warrior

Some things you should let go, there only gonna pull you down,
Just like weight on your shoulder they are only gonna make you drown
We all swing high, we all swing low,
We all got secrets people don’t know
We all got dreams we can’t let go,
We want to brave, Don’t be afraid
Ohh

Today, today, live like you wanna,
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire,
Fight like a Warrior,

Today, today, live like you wanna,
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire,
Live like a Warrior

Your heart is too heavy from things you carry a long time,
You been up you been down, tired and you don’t know why,
But you’re never gonna go back, you only live one life
Let go, let go, let goooooo, Let go, let go, let goooooo,

Today, today, live like you wanna,
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire,
Fight like a Warrior,

Today, today, live like you wanna,
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire,
Live like a Warrior

Today, today, live like you wanna,
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire,
Fight like a Warrior,

Today, today, live like you wanna,
Let yesterday burn and throw it in a fire, in a fire, in a fire,
Live like a Warrior

Comments
3 Responses to “7-24-12/Ureter Good, Creatinine High, and Bravery”
  1. Lillian Rosenzweig says:

    Keep the faith, I will keep you in my prayers.

    • dakski says:

      Lillian,

      Thank you for checking out the blog. It was great to meet you the other day and ditto on keeping the faith. You are in my thoughts as well.

      David

      • Teepee12 says:

        Good for you! It may not be valor, but not everyone has as much of a strong sense of self-preservation and gritty refusal to give up that you have. All things considered, you’re doing great. Keep on keeping on!

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