4-11-12/Surgery Tomorrow – D-Day Approaching!

Tomorrow is the big day. I have made my peace with what has to happen and am looking forward to feeling better on the other side (of transplant that is!).

 

I spent most of today running around so I didn’t have to think too much about tomorrow. Many people called/emailed/or texted and it was nice to feel that love.

 

I am pretty sure I have all major religions covered as well – everyone I know is praying for me.

 

I spent a lot of time with my wife, both consoling her and letting her console me. We are both scared, but are also both optimistic about the future; a potentially healthier future.

 

I took off my necklace today. It was my father’s and I’ve worn it since the day he died – 7 years ago. I feel naked without it, but know he will be with me tomorrow.

 

Going into this, my expectation is that everything is going to be fine. However, I find comfort in the fact that I have accomplished most, if not all, I wanted to in my 32 years.

 

I’ve shared my life with great friends and family, married the woman of my dreams, driven a race car, created something amazing to help the company that hired me out of school and gave me a shot, etc.

 

I’ve done so much in my time on earth, and most importantly, have touched many peoples’ lives. Those close to me seem more worried about losing me tomorrow than I am about dyeing. That’s not good or bad, just a reflection of the person I have tried hard to be. The important thing is that I really don’t have any regrets. I’ve made mistakes, but I’ve learned from them as well and done the best I could with what I had.

 

Please keep me in your thoughts/prayers and I will write as soon as I am able. I also plan to keep tabs at the hospital so I can share the experience as accurately as possible. Just be patient – posts will not come quickly I assume.

 

I love quoting song lyrics, so I will close with words of wisdom from The Smashing Pumpkins:

 

“My life has been extraordinary; blessed and cursed and won.”

Comments
2 Responses to “4-11-12/Surgery Tomorrow – D-Day Approaching!”
  1. I just read this for the first time today. I just wanted to say I will be praying for your speeding recover. I hope all goes well. Keep us updated.

  2. Sam Zager says:

    We look forward to greeting you on the other side of the transplant. We love you! Sam

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